I have to say I love curry, but I’ll be polite ins saying that they don’t much love me back , and remind me so hours later, but you know every now and again you have to torture yourself with something you like . So that being said I wanted curry. So found this recipe on line for veggie vindaloo.
It was done in a crockpot and it was good , but I would adjust the seasonings next time. It really needed some good curry powder (mine was a little old and the recipe didn’t really call for any but why have vindaloo without the curry taste, and was thinking that lentils would work well with this too. It did have enough colours and flavoring that even if you are used to eating meats you could like this for a vegetarian change once in a while. I had some assorted frozen vegetables that I had blanched and frozen a while back and added it to the pot. I used their picture because mine didn’t look so pretty in a dixie paper bowl. One thing for this kind of meal , you know it’s always going to be better when reheated as leftovers.

Speaking of a something looking good you really have to see this great kit, from Designs By Kristine from the artist formally known as Wenchd Grafix. Clinking on the link will take you to her store where she has some other awesome kits and some fabulous designers.

I headed off to Walmart with the thought of doing a bit of shopping. Needed some dog food and Bill wanted some canned raviolis. First off I have to say I hate canned pasta of any type. So maybe it was a jinx to start off with. Anyway he wanted like a dozen cans to keep on hand for when he wanted some.
This is not a Super Walmart that we went to. . Super Walmart has a lot of stuff it’s true , but they really don’t have a lot of choices of individual things. You may see a few brand names then their store brand . So it was just a regular Walmart.
Anyway they have a smaller food section there, mostly non perishables. Found what I was looking for straight away.
Walmart in their wonderful way of stocking many items on a shelf, will put flat boxes of canned goods one on top of another with the front cut off to make it easy to reach, but they also stack them rather high so a person who is slightly height challenged has a problem reaching them and try as you might no one around seems to work there to reach them for you or at least not in that particular department.
So I reach up to the box to get a can of the smeggin raviolis and start to put them in the store carriage , well doesn’t the thing tip forward and cans tumble down on to my flip flop wearing foot.#%$^*@&!!! I pick up one can and a merchandising gent helps pick up the other. I start to walk away and I realize it hurts , when I look down I see this. **************************
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So in my pain crazed mind I think I need to get out of here, the nail is barely hanging on there blood is pooling on my flip flop and I don’t want to drip blood on their floor and be a “bio hazard”, but I also know that Bill wants his ravioli and we need dog food. So I drag my foot like the Mummy in those old black and white films , so as not to jiggle the foot and get blood on the floor. All the time I am thinking I need a bandaid , I need a tissue , there ’s ton of that stuff in Walmart but did I think of that  NOPE. I’m feeling woozy and I got to get outside  get some air (so if I pass out it will be in the parking lot not inside the store .)Got home after stopping one other place the pharmacy for Bill, asked the pharmacist what I should do for it, didn’t think it would require any ER visit . So she gave me some instructions . I am only just realizing that the toe is broken too.

So there you go beware of Walmart and their canned goods.

It’s been a horribly rough week but we have touched beyond belief, by the digi scrap world I call home. A group of beautiful designers from all around the web put together this beautiful charity kit for my husband and I to help ease some of the stresses we have been going through with his cancer battle.

After bawling into my cup of coffee at how kind amazingly kind people can be. I know it is a true hassle putting together mega kits and knowing that I am even more so grateful for their efforts.

Here is the link to the kit

Magick Of Love

Thank you so much to these lovely designers:

Babydoll’s Scrapz
Flutterby Designs
Catlady Designs
Dee’s Delightful Designs
Granny Judy Designs
Teri Merkins Designs
Tammy Jo’s Creations
Relocated Dixie Girl
The Queen & The Princess Designs
Kikeka Kit
Sassy Scrapz Designs
Crazed’s Creations
Tootsie’s Creationz
Charmed by Mojo

Cornelia Designs
Scrapin Time n Fun
Bunchie’s Bin
Arkansas Outhouse Scraps
Scrappy Luv Designs

I am stressed to the max and ready to snap and the other night I vented a bit with a friend. I wasn’t snippy I was just hurt and stressed and all the other emotions that are going on right now and I thought I could share some of this stuff and she would just listen, confidentially as a friend like I have with her many times. Oh but noooooooo, she turns around a few days later sends a letter to both my husband and I . (I have to admit I don’t know that my husband talked to her or not) I was certainly not putting her in the middle as she claimed all I needed was a friggin ear to listen.

She sent me and him a note  basically telling me what is ok for me to talk to her about, and what she doesn’t want to hear because it puts her in the middle and she was  also eluding to things I said to her in what I thought was confidence of friends. I know she’ll see this but you know what this is the last straw in a pile of hurt for this week and I can not take any more crap from anyone. If I had the guts I would walk out in front of a bus and end the damn misery. (don’t call the police I am not suicidal just miserable) My husbands cancer is not only damaged him physically and mentally it has  damaged our marriage and friend ships and I can’t take it any more.  I /we need a break and there isn’t any and when I talk to a friend this is the shit I get . Here she is all pity me “I’m the bad guy now cause I spoke my feelings.”  Damn I spoke my feelings in confidence and she kicks me with it ,Thanks!

We care alot for this couple , and for Bill to say to a male friend that he loves him it is a huge thing but he does with this person’s husband, he thinks of him as a brother. Though he had nothing to do with the stupid letter I am afraid this will damage the friendship, how can he even talk to him now after that letter stating what she wants to hear and what she don’t.

I’m sorry , we don’t have any jokes or funny stories in our  life right now , we have hospital visits and on going treatments and misery.  So I guess I have nothing on that list I can talk to her about.

I know that I was wrong to respond to her letter so quickly especially being angry but I told her basically that I thought I was venting stresses to a friend , and all she could see was I was complaining.  So then there would be no more of those kind of talks damage done once again, I quit!

it’s nuts , 1 in the morning and I am awake playing games on Facebook , chatting with Teri who lives like 15 minutes away.

Hubby is sleeping to one of the Star Wars episodes. Trying to fall asleep to the sound of light sabers when you are not truly tired is just not working for me. So I guess I am taking a book and headed for the other bedroom . Altho I have to admit it is probably easier to sleep to light sabers then World War 2 in the bedroom.
Saturday and Sunday I will take a little time waking in the morning and indulge in watching some true food art . A station out of Boston runs the Phantom Gourmet and today they had all sorts of barbecue on . One of my favorite foods.
Check out these ribs  wow made with two kinds of soda .

Soda Ribs

This is one recipe waiting for the summer and Bill feeling better so we can celebrate .

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On the otherside of life at home, for those who ask how  Bill is ,  he continues to have radiation treatments.

He had a really rough go of the treatments and developed cellulitis  with a blood clot and now has to be on blood thinners . Because  the continuous low dose   5 day chemo treatment (goes with the radiation)  seems to be wearing him out severly   they have opted at this time to stop the chemo at home and to continue just the radiation as the combination is running him down so much, and they don’t want him to develop another clot or be in danger of getting pneumonia.

Radiation therapy continues until May 22 then he will have a few weeks before they begin the second round of radiation. With the hopes that after that is complete he will be cancer free.

It is a continuous struggle to meet the needs financially  of medicines and vitamins and this thing and that thing , that part never seems to end and there always seems to be more things that are not covered by insurance then those that are.  We have had to make some major adjustments to afford and still are scraping from day to day just to get the basics. It is a continuous challenge, and all the worse when I can’t work because of my debilitating back problems.  It is extremely frustrating dealing with agencies and charity groups trying to get by. Some are wonderful and have the compassion to want to help but don’t have the funds. Others that have the funds do not have the compassion and just say oh there must be some where else you can get help, or put you through so many ropes and hoops that we can not keep up with all that and his appointments too.

There are days where I am just at such a great loss as to what else we can do. Other then having the internet we have no other “luxuries”  and by luxuries I mean basics, like a home phone . We canceled that service along with basic cable . It’s really difficult at times to be on cell phone time watching minutes eat away, when you need to talk to someone to get you through another day of madness.

We do with out the cable but it is difficult when for him that is a main source of entertainment.

I am not really complaining  just getting some of this stuff off my chest. It has to go somewhere and so might just as well go out into cyberspace.  I am sure that people who deal with catastrophic illnesses themselves can comprehend some of this.

You don’t have to  be a Smeg head and miss out on some great scrapbooking sales.

Kristine aka  Wenchd Grafix is having a sale for NSD  don’t miss out.

And of course at DSG

I am unable to participate as a designer this year with my dh so sick, it does n’t allow much time to design these days. I am lucky I get to scrap at all. The store I work with and the designers I work with are fabulous in believing that family is a priority and I am so proud and pleased to be in part of them .

Happy shopping there will be tons of sales out there.

Spent the day up at the hospital again yesterday. DH has a bad infection in his feet, more so the right foot then the left. He has what the doctor called cellulitis. (sp?)His foot was horribly swollen and red hot. So the radiation nurse told him he needed to get up to the doctor right away. The oncologist saw him right away and had him admitted , heavy duty antibiotics and fluids.
It sucks being in the hospital , but he is in a brand new wing they opened up earlier this month in a room that hasn’t even had a patient in it yet. I had to unwrap the phone for him. Everything is state of the art and all the rooms are private. It’s more like a suite then it is a hospital room. He was laughing at the bathroom because of the way the shower is set up for wheelchair there’s not even a lip to the shower floor and he joked that he could sit on the toilet and have a shower at the same time. Only a man would think of that. So now it is a waiting game to see how the antibiotics work , and hope that he doesn’t loose his toes to the infection.

SO I used the Spring Water Colors Kit

My sister gave me this recipe, it’s great when you want a taste like a Big Mac and don’t want to do the drive thru, besides of which you can always make a better burger at home. I swear they must put some drug in the sauce that makes you want to keep coming back for it, if you really want a Big Mac not much else will take it’s place. So the joke is there is a addictive item in that sauce that makes you have those big mac attacks. Come on,  you know you’ve had one.

I don’t know where she got the recipe so I can’t credit it, but it’s pretty good and I wanted to come back to it, so scrapped it for my recipe box.

Also don’t forget to drop by Kristine’s blog She just might have a goody there or  maybe tell you where you can find one.

That’s all for me another long day of appointments today and Wednesday.  Have a great mid week.

In case you haven’t understood what the smeg is going on with all the smegging. Red Dwarf has a new three part episode out with the possibility of  10th season. How smeggin cool is that. So if you get a chance to see it ,  make sure you see the entire three episodes together if possible. It’s an odd story and need to see all to get it. but it makes sense and is funny as ever with the original cast.

She’s been a smeggin busy girl recently , designing up a storm.
Here is another great kit. Spring Water Colours Check it out and also have a peek in her blog Kristines Blog

Been a busy day for us , lots of appointments and the dreaded grocery shopping. It’s cool and rainy tonight a good night for sleep , but I am awake for some  weird reason. Playing on facebook and not doing anything useful. Just chilling out, and watching Red Dwarf. Love when PBS gets on a kick of showing some of the  sci fi shows.

Blogging two days in a row is an oddity for me these days. Got this great kit from my fellow smeg head ::grins:: and just had to share. You can see it in her shop.

Check out this Midnight Garden from Wenchd Grafix aka Kristine

If you check her blog you might find goodies there too . This kit is deep rich colours that I am looking forward to having some time to work with this weekend.